The "Bad Mood" Thread

It's not an easy decision to make.

 

Ugh.
boyfriend has to work late, and I really needed a good snuggle :'c

 

LMAO.

That actually looks extremely creepy o.o

I also feel like that would be harder to explain to someone more than even my dragon dicks.

 

I have seen these but I rather have a dakimakura to snuggle with.

 

I guess some people like cuddling with dismembered body parts.

 

Googled it. Some were pretty cute.

 

I don't need a dakimakura. Any body pillow is fine for me, cause I just like having something to snuggle against.

 

How the fuck can you not lay eyes on your mother since you were 14 and still wind up dealing with her fucking debt?

 

Aww... I was excited all day because I thought of a game that I thought a lot of people would like to play in the games forum, but nobody's interested...

 

I really need to stay off deviantART, it's a shot to morale to see just how poorly I measure up :/

 

I care not for deviant art, I removed all my art from there and only log in to check up on other artists.
its rampant with ads, messy UI, and art theft is uber rampant

p.s. for mind blowing arts I go to pixiv (though it is pretty saturated with animu style)

 

Yeah, I prefer using crevado for my stuff.

 

So now I learn one of my grandpa's in Missouri has brain cancer. Now I'm just really depressed because that's two States away, a good 8+ hour drive. I may never have the chance to see any of my grandparents on my mom's side before they're gone. Sure there's phone calls and what not but that's not the same....

 

My mind won't stop repeating moments of my trip, which might not seem like a bad thing but it's really, really fucking with me hard. Ever since we moved from NC back in 2010 I've felt alone and not like myself, Connecticut I never got the opportunity to go out and meet new people and socialize and down here in Florida I've realized that I don't want to make new friends, and my trip solidified that. Going up felt like I was going back home, going back to where I belong and so I was expecting leaving to be difficult but I didn't expect to just burst into crying fits randomly throughout the day and to just be constantly mentally torturing myself about how I don't want to be here, how I didn't want to return to this incredibly fucking stupid loneliness.

I didn't sleep well, I did have one dream though, and that entire dream was essentially recapping all the times I got to glance at Lizzy's eyes, which is probably my favorite physical feature of hers, while I was up there, and I woke up just sobbing uncontrollably. I'm pretty certain last Thursday I went from just being a bit crazy about her to falling for her, which is fine, just means having patience with her sorting her problems out is going to be unbearable at times. I shouldn't be down here, I should still be up there with her and Emma, ugh this really fucking sucks.

 

i mailed a letter to my boyfriend’s grandmother with a little needle felted owl in it i made for her. it is maybe half an inch tall and weighs less than a penny.

i just got the letter back, after 3-4 days after putting it out, telling me that there needed to be an extra $1.85 in postage in package rate. it fit inside a normal letter and weighed very little more.

yet when i mailed a paracord bracelet out it in a normal letter, it went through without a problem. it was a large bracelet too, and it weight significantly more but fit inside easily.

i already am paying ~25-50 cents for just the stamp! thats already expensive when you used to get them for a dime or even less!

$1.85 for mailing a LETTER?!

 

@Icestar I know what you mean darling. I have to pay customs for somethings and sometimes I don't. Although I haven't sent any parcels yet but when I do I hope it is not expensive because stamps here cost like £3.95 for 6 first class and £2 something for second class. Let alone the weight price for the darn thing.

 

The reason for this is that if they put an envelope with something that size in it, it has a pretty good likelihood of breaking, as well as possibly damaging the machine it's put through. And they can't open your mail to check if it's safe to put through their machine, since that's illegal, so they're best to assume that it would be bad to do so.

My guess is that the bracelet was flat and wide enough that nobody noticed it, and you should really consider yourself lucky for being able to mail the bracelet, instead of feeling down about the owl. Try mailing it in one of those yellow envelopes with the bubble wrap lining.

 

Think i should update you guys with that whole situation that went on. I actually didn't have the chance to talk to my friends yesterday but I did talk to the one im visiting in October.

First off holy fucking shit i think my friends may have done something in the right direction? Me and her talked about a lot, especially key things we're both looking for in partners and we're very similar in many ways and since we both care for each other a lot, the meeting in October will solidify if we'd like to take our friendship to the next level and officially be together. I guess we both just needed the push to admit how we feel about everything and each other and my face has pretty much been this for an entire day.



Don't know if should be mad or bake them cakes because tbh im really excited since the chance of us being together is hella high and it's like holy shit finally after 7 years. but at the same time they're all still slightly dead to me for being all pushy pushy.

Now on the other hand: my insurance is fucking with me again and my psychiatrist refuses to see me now which isn't good since my regular doctor won't see me either because it deals with an area of medicine she hasn't studied and i wouldn't feel right putting her in that situation again. So im scrambling to find a new place that will take me because im sick and tired of the other one and having to pay $100 out of pocket each visit since my insurance doesn't cover much at all so time to look for a place that takes it + medicaid (cause ho shit medicaid covers a lot considering my economic position). So that's fan-fucking-tastic right there.

 

its more over the weight, i think. i dont know, but i made a little pouch out of a bit of tape to try and protect the owl on the trip. i guess its not totally needed... maybe i can just put a little tissue paper around it.