The "Bad Mood" Thread

Had a skype call with boyfriend #2, while a fellow he knows sewed doubts in his mind about the feasibility of our relationship and his reasons for getting into it. I told him the truth, that I didn't think he got into this for the wrong reasons, and that how we got here is of far less consequence than what we do with our future. The relationship is ours to make what we want of it. Even if we got into it for the wrong reasons, it didn't detract from our compatibility or connection, our chemistry, or the love we feel for each other.

Seeing his sullen face as he had that conversation was one the saddest moments of my year and that includes two grandparents dying, one directly in front of me. I feel helpless and impotent and all I want to do is go to him and show him that he made the right choice. I'm just terrified of what I can't control and can't fix from my couch here, 35 hours away...

 

@Exeter its a shame when other people who are jealous or want to make sure that other person has horrible relationships have to interfere. I've gone through the struggle of trying to figure out if people are telling me the truth or if I should listen to my heart.

I'm sure all three of you can work through it and be stronger because of it.

 

This is pretty damn accurate right now.

 

BD charged me twice for one toy. I already sent a ticket but now I have a negative balance on my checking account.

 

ACK no good! D:

 

I filed a form with my bank saying I didn't authorize the double payment so will have to wait to see what happens.

 

my computer had to be shipped out for repairs... so im stuck at the desktop computer for two weeks.

 

Ouch x.X
I hope things work out for you, that's just terrible D:

 

I've been checking the ticket system to see if anyone has replied. Nothing yet.

 

*flips table*
I'm so irritated right now.
some random fuck head called me from a withheld number and wanted "boobies in my mouth" and they were talking all weird.
I want to know who called and how they got my number and why on earth if they wanted my titties I didn't get dinner?

 

you might be able to go to your phone provider's website. however you can assume it was some teenager prank calling that came up with a random number.

 

I hope it's random because if it's someone I fucking know I'mma slap the nuts right off him.

 

i second this

 

I'm incredibly depressed. It's a dumb reason i guess im just very lonely. I'm now the only single person among my main friend group. Back to being a third wheel and while I was with everyone today I just felt this horrible pain shoot through me. It hit me hard that I'm alone. The only possible relationship right now is with my friend but she's 5 hours away. I have such trust issues that trying to date online scares me and I'm way too introverted to go out and meet someone. Also way too shy and I know I have too much baggage and I don't want to put that onto anyone (my one friend has been through every down period in my life and saved me too, she doesn't care how much baggage i come with and loves me no matter what). I also feel like i would screw up another relationship because of my mental health issues.

Meh im gonna go curl up with my plushies and have a good cry if i can.

 

At least you have plushies to cuddle :x I know your pain too. I'm pretty much the same...

 

Well it seems I've lost my only friend that's relatively close to my home. I kinda questioned her about our friendship and there has been no reply in 5 days. God damn my paranoia and trust issues ruin everything. Guess being alone is my best option.

 

This is my third day of being sick. Just general "guts feel like crap" all the time, but it's really unpleasant, and it's pissing me off. Why the fuck am I being sick over vacation?

 

God I fucking hate my body and face.

 

*hugs* Yeah, I'm MTF too.
I wouldn't mind so much if I could actually be a decent looking guy, but that just hasn't happened.

 

Why do I feel like derilict debris of a spaceship, drifting away in space, with everyone ignoring it as it is of no use anymore... Like everybody around me is just purely ignoring my existence and needs. Acknowledging my presence only when they need something.
I know it isn't like that, but fighting loneliness is getting tougher and tougher. Everybody around me just says something along the lines "finding a gf is easy" like it's fucking walk to the store to buy one. Do you think if it were that easy I'd be single still? :x
I just had to vent this. I sometimes lose any shreds of hope and faith for better tomorrow... Like I'm running on fumes of both.