What Is On Your Mind?

Can confirm being busy. I spent the past few days in uni until 6pm working on assignments, then had shopping stuff to do in the evening and I'm in all day tomorrow too. My group partners have actually been staying overnight in the computer labs to get work done, bless their souls.

 

spent the past few hours working on my art final. been working hard on getting the strange alien lizard hands in the image right and now I'm all hot and bothered thinking up reptilian species for some stories

 

Big Hero 6 proves that the best way to prevent another outbreak of Elsanna is to create characters with absolutely no personality whatsoever, so that nobody will want to ship 'em.

 

power supply in my PC went poof...on my moms computer for now till that + new hd are installed...

 

Yeah when I menrioned that there are people out there that have more than one partner and she replied quite angrily that it's not normal.

 

I'm sure this is probably what it is as well.
Things will more than likely pick up once finals are over (since most of us are in school)

 

I don't know many kinky people.... Or people....

 

I've been a little less active than usual, been ridiculously busy at work. One of the formen that take on a lot of jobs decided to just go to Florida out of the blue and just dumped all of the jobs he had on my crew...

 

I've been busy too! Lots of late nights and no time for anything. Two relationships to maintain, and no IRL friendships that I actually get to enjoy up here, so I'm just working a lot. Also playing ORAS

And listening to the Interstellar soundtrack. My favourites are Stay, I'm going home, Day One, The Wormhole, and Detach.

Also riding dildos!!!!

 

I have not had time for that in a while...

 

I do it in the moring before I go to work. If my stomach wasn't so upset I'd go riding today

 

I need less people in the house and more time in the day...

 

Humans used to never be monogamous anyway. We've always had multiple mates. Its just tradition/religion/culture that monogomy cameto be

 

People piss me off so much when they try to shove their own ideals into what "normal" is.

 

Japanese studies anyone?

 

I've got a date tomorrow with someone I used to be in a relationship with when I was identifying as cis female. He very recently began the process of coming out as bisexual.

This should be interesting. It's probably a terrible idea! But it should at least be interesting.

 

Sounds like a recipe for self-discovery!

 

From an outsiders point of view, I have everything. A boyfriend that thinks the world of me, an amazing dog, my own house, artistic talent, a job that I actually enjoy for the most part, and where I make enough to pay all my bills...but on the inside, I just constantly feel like a failure. I've pulled back from all my friends to the point where I actually have social anxiety now (if someone engages me in conversation, I start feeling extremely light headed like I'm going to pass out, and I get tunnel vision).
I feel like everyone would be happier if I wasn't around, and I've been thinking more and more about ending my life nowadays, just because it's so hard to even wake up in the mornings. The almost literal weight on my chest is becoming too much to bear, and I don't even have anyone I can talk to who understands. My boyfriend is great to me and all, but he's never dealt with depression before. He can't wrap his mind around the fact that I simply cannot just try to be happier. It frustrated him, and it frustrates me because I WANT to be happy, why is this so difficult?

 

@Vitani I know what you feel. *hug* Having a goal, and focusing on it instead of the stuff around me that goes bad helped. Nothing has changed - I'm still alone, I still have money issues, I still have to deal with my family on daily basis... Yet I'm happy. Mostly. For now. I know dealing with depression can be an never ending war that will give you a lot of scars, deep ones. But if you won't fight, who will? I've came back with shield, not on it. I just strongly believe you will too. Hang in there <3

 

I'm learning Japanese if that's what you mean.