The "Bad Mood" Thread

wtf :/

Where did you order it from, if I may ask?

 

Overclockers.co.uk.

 

Fuck.

Feel just absolutely in the dumps today... Been a little grumpy lately, but not quite like this... All I want to do is sleep, not talk to anyone and the pettiest of things cause my blood to boil. Was at my parents place for the weekend, but got really pissed at something while they were out and decided to just plain pack up and go home. They clearly are worried about me, they've tried calling about a dozen times, but I really, really don't want to talk to them.
There's just a lot of things bringing me down lately... And Valentines Day just always serves as a reminder that I'm just a homo that's too cowardly to come out to anyone, and that I just plain suck at relationships and everything...

 

Dammit, BD. How hard is it to pull the toy I bought out of a drawer and put it in a box? It should not take 4+ days to process an inventory toy!

 

Well you're out here, so don't beat yourself up. You're not a coward among strangers who have seen your face, take some pride in the bravery you've shown here. A lot of guys in your lifestyle are in the closet. You wouldn't believe how many. My boyfriend out there is one of them too. Nobody on his worksites, not even his foreman, knew. I'm not even sure how many of his friends know.

You could always try dating online, there are guidelines for how to actually get something out of it that actually help. I've been dating my first real catch on Plenty of Fish for two years now, my mom has been dating hers for 6. If you're in the right mindset you can make wonders happen with a free dating site.

On the other hand, take some time to value and appreciate yourself. You need to reflect on all your talents, skills, accomplishments, your exceptional physical and personal qualities, and learn to love yourself. You're an incredible guy with everything to offer and you need to love yourself first before anyone fits happily into your life.

And it's good you're not angry at your family, and that you're not blaming them for moods they're not at fault for. Take a moment to let them know you're just dealing with things and needed some space. That's neither selfish or destructive, that's just what it takes to get out of your head. And that's okay.

 

OMG whats happened?

 

My ex-boyfriend used my old name in a Facebook status...


"Our" secret my ass. That is MY secret, not yours. Fucking douchebag...
And he didn't know me before I started transition. He didn't/doesn't know the person I was before. He barely knows who I am now.
And he should know better, he's trans too.

 

Your existing avatar is really the best response.

 

sounds like a dick

 

IKR?

He certainly is one!

 

Euuugh. My condolences. Though fistbump for having an "H" dead name as well.

 

Cool beans! Mine was a really cute name, but it kinda doesn't fit anymore. I was previously named after a really good book, but now I'm named after my great grandfather.

 

So, a transformer blew...or something. Idk, I'm not technical about that kinda stuff.

But my whole area lost power...like 7,000 people or something. I was at work when this happened, and I was grabbing stock in the morning. I was LITERALLY about to step onto the elevator...like the door to it was open and everything...when the power went out...

THANK THE LORD, I was not on it when it died. I would have cried for the rest of my life. I hate elevators as it is.

But the basement was dark and creepy as fuck, and trying to get through it to get back upstairs was also nerve wracking.

AND THEN OF COURSE, when I get home and try to boot up my computer, it doesn't turn on, and just makes this scary beeping noise. I freak out and try turning it on again...and again...scared that something fried in it because of the fucking power outage/surge. Iwas about to cry thinking about how I'd lose all of my artwork and junk, but SOMEHOW MIRACULOUSLY it worked after I gave it a break and had lunch. Deff going out to get a surge protector this weekend. Jesus christ. I need alcohol.

 

Cheesus, that last part made me nervous. That's one of my great fears right there. I'm glad it managed to survive!

 

be thankful that elevators won't work with the power out; also if an elevator were to go runaway there is a mechanism that slows it ^^ there's a hatch on top of the cars too and i believe there is a ladder in the shaft.

 

Not only that, but most modern elevators have a mechanism that takes them to the ground floor automatically and opens the doors once the power is out. In fact, I think it's the law to make them like that in the US.

 

I haven't talked very much in the past two weeks IRL. My voice just sounds like I'm shaking, it cracks, and sometimes I even lose it when i speak. Not that I'm complaining, everyone now FINALLY understands that I have selective mutism in most of my courses, but it sucks that when I speak my voice sounds like literal shit.

I mean...it sounds like it to begin with but the shakiness and everything makes it worse.

It's also giving me the unfortunate pleasure of re-evaluating how I tend to blurt things out, make shitty jokes, and just overall lack the skills to even remotely socialize to anyone when it comes to speaking. I've more or less realized this with this one girl who I can't really get mad at because she doesn't get my humor yet but everything just dies off in the conversation when I say one wrong thing because I'm too much of a fucknut who just says things and ends up being a total jackass when I don't mean to be. When we first went on call together I began whimpering and crying, having to end it because I made a stupid joke and the remark she made (even though it was innocent and i guess right?) just punched me in the face and made me really realize how big of a dumbass i am.

....i think i'm just gonna go back to the way i was in high school and just stop talking all together (i never talked in high school because of my anxiety and dealing with being selectively mute)...

EDIT:

I'd feel bad making another post but ugh I keep getting misunderstood by this person with what I say and it's driving me fucking insane. I wish she would just say 'i don't understand' in a nice way because i feel like she's sassing me? Just...ugh...it's making me feel even worse and I'm now getting panicked when I send messages x______x

 

My steam account has become populated with games my computer can't actually play... I suppose I could save up for a while, but that's going to be difficult.

 

Winter needs to get the fuck out right now.

The snow banks are so high you can't see oncoming traffic.

I was bringing the car back in and normally i go around the block or something. I was coming down a street, stopped at the stop sign and didn't see anything aside from the car on the opposite side wanting to turn. I thought it was okay.

HAHAHA NOPE. ALMOST GOT FUCKING RAMMED BY AN ONCOMING LITTLE WHITE SHIT OF A CAR.

I'm scared half to death, shaking, and crying. I managed to speed up fast enough to get by (i have a surprising reaction time to these sort of situations thank fucking god) and the person acted fast enough to stop in time. I feel terrible because i couldn't see the car and I'm sure i scared the person in their car too. I feel like a horrible person.

Recently my family has had car problems and most things come in 3's. First, my aunts car got stuck. Second, my mirror got knocked off and my front bumper scratched by someone going too fast down the street (because my car was parked and we can't get too close to the curb cause of tHE GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING SNOW). Then tonight I thought that accident would be #3.

I need to go lay down.

 

*Sends you all her good vibes/luck*