The "Bad Mood" Thread

I got a couple of things that are bringing me down that I can only post on the inter-webs.
1. I am sick with a double whammy bladder infection and sinus infection. physical misery.
2. I get this bladder infection right after I got my Medium moko that i paid 200 for and was a birthday present to me from me. oh the frustration!
3. my Medium moko disappoints me, not use wise though I am just plum proud of it, but color wise. I paid 30 for the hydrozone color, which i got because my mate thought it would be cute and I didn't know what else to get, and I asked for swirls only to get like one side grey one side some brown. It looks lazy compared to the promo pics. That is not swirl, and there were lil drops of silicone like it had not been trimmed. Honesty its the second lazy marble so I really don't know what I should have expected I cannot ticket for a couple of reasons, one it was a one only, then I already opened it because I knew nothing would be done. Sigh
now im not really wanting to buy from BD anymore, after the two toys my partner wants.

 

So my grandma died, about an hour ago.
It was actually a relief for her, the condition in which she was... Let's just say it was more of a vegetation than life, for past year. But her death means a whole new bunch of issues and troubles - financial included, when I don't need them. There will be lots of formalities, lots of paying for stuff including burial ceremony, and no internet for some time, depending on how fast new provider will be able to start actually providing the service. (The old internet contract, one I have now, was signed for grandma. I don't even remember why, but I think it was back in the times that "stationary" telephones were a thing, and she was the owner of the connection, so simply adding internet to the mix was better option than making a new contract. Then for all this time, it was just "upgrading" over making new.)

Then there's another thing that will haunt me for some time - I wasn't able to make it in time to the hospital to say my goodbyes, mum and dad weren't able too so she died alone. What I lacked was ~10 minutes, maybe even less - I got the third call from mum, about grandma's death, just when I was one bus stop before hospital. And this will haunt me because I feel like it's been my fault - I was woke up by a call from mum, but I didn't get up fast enough to pick it up. So I proceeded to do normal morning routine and after I got the call second time I picked it up, rushed to the hospital, but it was too late.

 

Hey, that stinks, but if she was in that bad of a state, I don't think anyone being there would have made a difference, and she might not have even been able to care. You might feel bad about not making it, but you'll feel better over time. I should know, since it's happened to me three times that I've been unable to visit someone and the next day they were gone.

I dunno how much of a consolation it is, but if you believe in an afterlife, she understands, and isn't alone now, and if you don't, she doesn't care anymore.

 

I am so sorry to hear that this has happened.
It is good that she is no longer suffering, and I hope that it brings you some peace knowing that.As for the bills it is unfortunate, but unavoidable. I know that will be looming on me as well since my parents are in their 70s and disabled.
It is not your fault, but I know it feels like you needed to be there for her and that you didn't make it hurts. You did your best and that is all you can do. I wish I could give a good hug right now.

 

And I could use this. Oh so much. But still, everybody I consider friend (which means all of you over here ) are literally an ocean away (well in one case it's closer, but still way too far), so no hugs for me.

 

virtual hugs are still a thing <3

 

My condolences to you, I hope things get better. I've had someone pass before (it was my best friend) and I know how difficult it is. Unfortunately it's a part of life and happens to everyone eventually.

What helped for me was doing stuff I liked to keep my mind off it, which can be difficult, but really try to keep yourself busy, accept what happened and let it go as best as you can.

 

Damn, that's what I get for buying at a massive discount. Toy arrived yesterday from someone on the old forums, and it had an undisclosed BB-sized air bubble on the detail of the base. It wouldn't bother me so much if they'd return my email :/

I mean, at that price, I'd still have bought it if I knew, but still...

 

pictures?

 

Once I clean it. It still has shipping guff on it.

 

I'm really scared of what my friend is going to say because i feel like she...doesn't understand that somethings are really hard for me to understand? like i have a hard enough time grasping simple things sometimes and i have a fear she's going to be really really blunt and i have a feeling it's really really gonna hurt

 

So the guy I was last with is now harassing me, saying false things about my sexual fantasies, has threatened to show people in my personal life my porn art, and just now started texting me. This is verbal abuse and idk why he is doing it. If he messages me again I will do something about it.

 

Restraining order his ass.

 

Sorry for your loss.

 

Here is the thing. Mom wanted to change a ceiling lamp and has me holding the new one in the air hands only, no possible arm support, while she wires it. So she takes AGES to wire and I'm getting tired, I let it down a bit to reduce the tension in my wrist and she whines at me (pouty face included): "Don't let it dooo-o-own".
I just tell her that I cannot hold it forever with just my hands, she gets angry at me, de-wires the lamp and sarcasticly says "Thank you". My only reply is "You whine and expect me to hold that lamp for more than 20 minutes straight, and you blame me? Perfect" and as I go back to my room she replies "At least I thank you, insteand of hating you like you do to me".
I need to get the fuck out of this house ASAP.

 

I've had 3 nosebleeds since I've been sick. And today I woke up to blood gushing from my nose.

Ugh. I hate everything.
EDIT:

Just had another one while showering. If i hit another one for today im being dragged off to immediate care x__x

 

Maybe this goes in secret confessions, but... I kinda like nosebleeds?

 

ugh. i think dad gave me his stuffy nose.

 

This has been one of the worst weeks of my life.

1.) One of my 'friends' told me he was jacking off to pictures of me...my boyfriend saw it, and got pretty pissed off. I told my friend that he was being way out of line talking to me like that, and he turned it around saying that my bf was controlling me. (???) We had a big ugly fight over it, but ultimately, I've cut contact with him.

2.) We found out that my boyfriend's mom has cancer.

3.) I am house/dog sitting for one of my moms friends. I stayed the night over there last night, and the 2 dogs got in a VERY GRUSOME fight. There was blood everywhere. I was not warned about this, I was told that they got along great with each other (which has always been the case every time I've seen them?) My boyfriend was screaming at them, trying to pull them apart (carefully) but they were completely locked, we had no other choice but to wait it out....and it lasted about 8 minutes, but it felt like hours. I had a massive panic attack. One of them needed stitches. I feel like the owner will never trust me again, though he assured me that it wasen't my fault and there was nothing I could have done. I STILL can't calm down from that. This morning, I cleaned their wounds again, but even just being in the house they were getting very aggressive stance and growling with hackles raised so I had to keep one in the crate for now.

 

Oh God, I'm so sorry to hear all this Especially the #2. I wish there's anything I could do to help >.<