What Is On Your Mind?

Fell asleep so damn fast that when I did wake up mid-morning I was very confused about my surroundings and had to remind myself that I was in someone else's bed.

On one hand I certainly hope I didn't beat up on him too much while sleeping.
On the other he probably deserves it for something :V

We had awkward,

Spoiler

bloody sex last night on a red towel. He doesn't have a good selection of decent condoms IMO, and the one was bad funky out of the package so we ended up going with this thick, flavored latex Durex thing. Conveniently was also red, so made everything a little less horrifying in the end. Also tried using a really thick Oxballs cockring to see if it would help as a buffer of sorts, since I max out at 6" when I'm not in the middle of my period, and less when I am, and he has ~7.5" of length. Still had to watch the angle a bit, which he gets points for being a lot more careful about than previously. My moment was very tame, happened but wasn't quite the right build-up to it. Usually difficult to obtain internally during this so I'm not too torn up about it. Think it helped with sleep honestly, though maybe the angry games of naked POOLNATION offered something too.

 

Slept in >< Wasted whooooole day.

I hate going to bed without an alarm, I just oversleep and wake up with a headache. Now I'm just killing me afternoon like it's my morning and trying to figure out what to do with the remains of a wasted day off ><

 

I have to fold laundry yet.

 

The Boy and the Beast finally has a trailer!!!!

 

I have no clue what that is, and I have never heard of "Studio Chizu", but what I do know is I HAVE to see that.

Also, that REALLY looks a lot like the kind of work Studio Ghibli and Hayao Miyazaki do/did.

 

What you SHOULD be watching is The Wolf Children, Hosoda's other animated masterpiece. You will LOVE it. The whole thing is on youtube.

AND YOU WILL CRY.

 

do something that makes you smile, then you'll be hard pressed to call it a waste.

 

Can't find the energy, stomach's upset, body just wants to give up >< Gonna have some cereal and hope it makes things better ><

 

I've never heard of The Wolf Children, or Hosoda either. .___.;

Definitely think I'll give it a watch once 2AM hits tonight, though. (because data limits :T )

Calories are life savers. And also mood savers as well.

 

Just got done at the doctor's and going to go pick up my prescription of Hydroxyzine.

Is it weird that I have an anxiety for taking anxiety meds in fear I will get a really bad reaction so I hardly take them? ;__;
I'm too nervous. I really need help sdlkfj

 

I love finding new anime movies !
I only have really heard of Hayao Miyazaki's work. And hes unfortunately decided to stop making films now.
I'll definitely have to check these out if they come available on netflix or in my country.

 

Wolfchildren looks like something I would enjoy. Sadly the last wolf anime I watched *also* made me cry. What are you trying to do to me!?

 

I'm gonna make an unpopular opinion, and say that I didn't like the last few Miyazaki movies. They seemed like they just ended too suddenly, either conveniently wrapping up the plot all at once because it was time for the movie to finish, or leaving off on a cliffhanger, where there was obviously more story to be told.

 

Hey. sup?

 

That looks amazing. As does Wolf Children. I have to find both of them now.

Viagra hangovers are terrible. So is really gnarly heartburn from eating too many spicy pickled Thai cucumbers. But both pains were worth last night.

It is awful of me that I really want one of these (link)? [NFSW]

 

holy schnikies, how hard is it to make you smile? You seem giddy as all holy shit on here.

 

Has anyone here ever tried dark chocolate milk? It's awesome, best description I could give is that it's like thicker chocolate milk.

 

Good lord, mass reply INBOUND! x'D

I know those feels.

Spoiler: Emo Medication And Mental Issue Crap

I'm supposed to be taking Abilify for my Schizophrenia, if not for my mental issues since I usually seem to do a decent job of controlling them myself through self awareness+effort+diet (fresh breads, pastas, and potatoes all apparently help with the bloodbrain barrier, making hormones/meds/natural nutrients absorb better), then to at least slow down or prevent the degeneration. Long Story Short, if I don't take it regularly, in about ten years,

Spoiler: Somewhat Detailed Brain Related Stuff

at the "late stages" I'm looking at not even knowing who I am, let alone anyone or anything else, due to the inner structure of the brain (I forget the name, but that center part) expanding, leaving less room for the left and right halves of the cerebral cortex inside my skull, resulting in them shrinking down over time to compensate, which in turn results in progressively reduced memory and higher thought processes as it contiunes.

It's highly possible that's already begun, because my memory definitely is not as good as it was 4 years ago....and I'm about to turn fucking 22 in a few months.

Good news is, I have the pills with me in my room in plentiful supply, and "scientific studies have shown" Abilify is able to help slow down or even halt the effects of Schizophrenia while being taken.

Bad news is, I don't trust a thing any drug company says about any capsulated lab chemical they pop out, because majority of those studies are funded with the goal being to "show what their drug is good for", while only "showing" enough about it's potential side effects and dangers to keep the initial FDA reviewers happy enough to approve it, and sometimes even falsifying what it is even "good" for in the first place. Class Action Lawsuits over older drugs having caused life damaging long term effects, as well as fatalities are not uncommon these days, and you know that's what happened every time a commercial comes on TV saying "If you or a loved one suffered/experienced X while taking Y, you may be entitled to compensation." about a drug. That, and I just don't like the idea of taking them to begin with......

So yeah, forcing a pill down each night to keep my brain in semi-desirable condition is a bit of a personal struggle for me.

Did I ever mention I love Red Hot Nickle Ball? No? Well now I have.

Uhm...Boris...he's 74, with countless more titles to his name than most people know about...many of which even my mom and I never heard of. I'd say if he's deciding to retire, then at this point, he's earned all the rest and relaxation he could possibly want. :'|

Not sure about the LAST FEW in my opinion, but definitely in the case of Ponyo, I'd agree and say it was a little lackluster for something to come from him. Then again, Disney was the publisher for that, and while he has legally stated that if anyone wants to distribute or export his work they have to do so entirely unaltered from his original, and that he has the power and the status as a producer and writer to make that demand and pretty much tell someone to fuck off if they don't want to.....I still get the feeling they did something to it to make it less Miyazaki and more Disney. Aside from adding a song by Miley Cyrus to the credit sequence. We all know that was their doing.

The only chocolate I really eat anymore, aside from the occasional chocolate tofu pie or creative attempt to make my own chocolate treats, would be organic dark chocolate, with a mandatory MINIMUM of 65% Cocoa. <3

 

For me someone offered to be my Doctor. And described the wrong Doctor's outfit....FUK U xD