The "Bad Mood" Thread

If it makes you feel any better, my street name is actually misspelled, so I look like an idiot all the time.

 

Been a while since I've felt like something belonged in here. Damn.

 

Not happy in my relationship right now.
But I don't know whether to stay, go or talk?
I can't exactly put into words how I feel.
I think it's more I don't feel needed. Even if I am liked.

 

Talk.

 

Definitely talk

 

Don't know if anyone remembers the girl I threw the paper airplane at, we've been fooling around a while, and she told me she loves me.

 

In about a month, I'm moving five hours away from home to go to grad school. I'm kinda freaked out. I know I'm going to be ok, and that I'll get used to it and probably even enjoy myself. You need to understand, though - I've lived in the same place my whole life. We've never moved, and I've never moved out. In my 23 years I've done a good amount of traveling, but I've never been away from home and family for longer than two weeks. I've never lived on my own. I've certainly never been so far away that I can't really drop by anytime I like.

My brother is essentially my best friend, and my parents and I get along great. We have such great times together. I'm going to miss all the people I know and love here more than anything in the world. My parents, my brother, my gramma, my aunts and uncles, my friends, my cats... it won't be easy to see them anymore. I'm going to a strange place to live with strangers. I've been spending the past nine months trying to get in as much quality time as I can, but forever itself isn't long enough.

I know I'm going to be ok, and I know I need to do this, I just really dread the process. I'm going to be lonely and depressed for a while, and feel isolated and lost, and my family back here are going to miss the hell out of me too. Mom especially is going to have a hard time with it. I wish I could just take everyone with me.

 

Skype?

 

Good point. I should get a webcam.

 

Them wizards, man, gotta love em.

 

And this is bad mood material why?

 

Went on a date with Poster tonight, had great Jeera Chicken Curry at a decent restaurant, but I thought my chicken was a little soft. Cut open the last piece, not even having considered that it might be bad. It was bright pink. My stomach is starting to cramp, I'm really hoping this doesn't turn out to be salmonella....

 

You ever kiss a rattlesnake on the mouth?

 

Boy what the heck you talking bout?

 

The well of motivation to do stuff has gone dry. I'm speaking about drawing namely; I don't really feel like I progressed much since the time I have bought the tablet and started drawing. I did some progress, but it's far too less that what I could made if I practiced more often. And now all my tries to improve at some aspects come out as a crap, this is extremely discouraging. I also have about 2 or 3 unfinished pictures, and I don't really feel like I'm able to finish them. Neither I feel like starting a new one, since it will just end like the previous ones, and I don't like leaving stuff unfinished.

 

It takes a long time to get used to using a tablet.

Also, I have at least ten unfinished pictures. Nothing to be upset about.

 

@Exeter OMG poor baby I hope you're ok.

@vahaala as for art darling art cannot drastically change in the short amount of time you have been doing it. But you will get there eventually. My drawing isn't anywhere near the level I want it to be quite frankly I am way out of practice especially with a tablet (which I still need to buy a new one btw). But don't get dishearten as Murphy said tablet is completely different from tablet to pen and paper. But the more you practice on both you'll improve.

 

I think a really important thing when it comes to things like this is self-discipline. Keeping at it every day even if a finished picture is not the result. With every line from the pen you improve, even if it doesn't seem like it. The results will show one day and then it will be a surprise. It is a slow process, a really slow process. Even if one is moving slowly it still means one is moving.
That's the advice I tell myself. Still working on that discipline thing though heh.

 

@SnowLycan @MurphyAlter @othersounds The fact that I can't seem to find tutorials for REAL beginners only makes it worse. Only 2 or 3 tuts I found were remotely useful, the rest of them assumed I'm a good artist already - know the anatomy and shading well, all that stuff - and just want to try new things. None of them was real step-by-step tutorial, which showed where things come from and how they're done in a way that a beginner will understand, and in a way that I would be able to reproduce. Maybe I'm just looking in bad places, but thanks for the support anyways.

And another rant about my friends...

Spoiler: words

It seems that my IRL friends for some reason became much more distant... We have known each other since primary school and up until not that long ago were sticking together really close. But yesterday I was talking with one of them, and I hear the rest of "our pack" in the background, so I casually ask what they're doing there, a party? The response was "No, they were kicked out of their homes", and I'm like "Oooookay...". Then the one friend I'm talking with starts to speak about some car crash, and I ask him did he saw it - and he says "I was in this crash.", thankfully he's okay but his car is pretty much totaled. What I'm trying to say - just a month or two ago, I'm pretty sure they would at least say something - you know, as a good pack of friends we kept each other informed how it's going. Now there's much serious shit happening, and I'm the dead last one being informed, indirectly. I don't really know what to think. It's hard to describe this, as it's a subtle difference, but... I feel like they're becoming more and more distant. Or maybe it's something on my side? Maybe I'm the one distancing myself? I'm not sure. It's just everytime I try to hang out with them they're "busy" or "tired" and when they hang out together, I'm informed a day later when they post photos on Facebook. I don't want to lose them, because beside them I don't really have anybody who I could call a good friend and at the same time meet them IRL. I have you all here, but I can't meet you in person, despite my greatest wish to do so. I know a small group of furries from my city,we like each other - we hanged out together 2 or 3 times and it was fun, but that's about it. I wouldn't call them close friends, not yet. I'm not sure what to do, or whether to do anything at all. Maybe 15 years of knowing each other is too long...

 

@vahaala hey sweetie pie just wondering do your friends work the same as you or do they have all the free time in the world?

As for drawing have you tried mimicking simple art styles such as Pokemon and other really simplistic looking characters these will get you to understand the feel of what drawing is about its all about shapes and lines.