The "Bad Mood" Thread

Yep, in usual tradition, I can't have a single good fucking day.

Apparently my brother snapped at my parents today, the worst he ever has done. So much that he almost got kicked out, calling my mother everything under the sun and picking on my father. I'm actually surprised nobody hit anyone, but I'm scared because it seems he really is close to doing so at some point. Then my mother got annoyed at my father because he was too scared to intervene. For reference, my brother is a social media addicted 20 year old who spends 95% of his time in his room, and this all escalated from him being told off for almost breaking a set of expensive blinds due to laziness.

Despite everything I've been saying about my mother recently, I feel so sorry for her. She was almost crying, and that's not something that happens often. With regards to everything that's been happening over the previous 6 months or so, I'm seriously worried that our family is going to fall apart any time soon. Being someone who has grown up extremely close to them, I'm not sure if I could handle that. I feel like crying again.

 

so the bigger charity I was supposed to affiliate backed out at the last minute. Not diverse enough for them. Pretty sure diversify phase can wait until after the grasping at straws trying to keep your head above water phase. So we're back to bleak and hopeless. which is fine, bleak and hopeless is where I made home. Maybe I'll day with pain and sadness being the only thing I give to the world, but fuck it, Im mean as he'll and I fight hard. always ashamed of that until I found something worth fighting fir. . .

 

Me and my boyfriend were talking and having a really nice time sharing pictures back and forth to each other. Then out of the blue he brings up bad things between us that basically caused us to break up for a week. Stuff i don't like thinking about. I got mad and tried to cut our conversation short as politely as i could, but now im sad, and angry and don't feel like dealing with his shit for right now.

 

Ugh why bring that stuff up out of nowhere.... I guess it was on his mind, even while doing other things.... :/

 

But thats what i dont get. We've talked about this thing over and over again. I even told him i forgived him even though in my mind i havent. I wanted us to move forward and just when i think we are he goes and fucks up my day

 

Well to be fair, clearly he's been dwelling on it, you can't exactly blame him for bringing up what's been on his mind. The timing just sucks but it's not like there's ever a really good time to bring up the issues on your mind...

 

I suppose thats true. But then he just dismissed it as if he didnt say what he said. And usually he gives at least some warning before he wants to talk about something like this. This time it just went from good to awful.

 

Next time you're doing something naughty just switch to a discussion of Carly Fiorina and see if it changes his mood

 

I will have to try that XD

 

It's a small thing, but I feel a cold sore coming up, and it's really annoying.

 

Is this normal that when I come home all the shreds of good mood I happen to have are going "poof"? While I'm away only a few things can really make me angry, but in home even the smallest things make me go off. And especially my mum :/ I can't even get some peace when I come back from work, always there's "do this, do that" and all that is the stuff she could do herself (like taking a plate for food/preparing the tea for herself/picking up the phone), but "she's tired"... Like I'm not, after 8 hours of carrying heavy books around, inhaling all this dust and being stressed that whole time.

I just feel really alone, not even in terms of being single (but that too)... More like I have nobody to rely on, aside from Internet friends like you all.

 

So wait, you said you forgave him, but you really haven't? Have you considered that maybe he's picked up on that lie of yours? Maybe his gut instinct is telling him that you really haven't forgiven him. Either forgive him or move on with your life. Stringing him along like this, it's not right. You SHOULD feel bad for lying, and for not forgiving.

 

Its not that i dont want to forgive him. He just moves a bit to fast for me. The fact that i said i didnt forgive him weighed heavily on his mind, so because i didnt want him to suffer and only wanted peace between us i told him i did. The truth is i need more time to heal but dont want him to suffer. So i know i shoild feel bad for lying and in a normal circumstances i would but in this case i think im justified

 

I know this feeling all to well. Sadly we both have the same issue as not being able to move out.

*huggles*

 

I feel awful right now. All cramped up, bored, tired, and I wasted my entire day pretty much.

 

Okay... so i told my boyfreind everything hoping to settle things once and for all (for the 8th time now) i even told him that i havent forgiven him yet and we were able to work that out and he felt much better. We were able to talk only for him to be met with worse news. His doctor says he suffers from a particular bipolar disorder. So even though I told him i was mad about yesterday i have to be strong for him. Though im not sure what to do now. (Also sorry for any spelling mistakes. Im typing using only one hand)

 

Pinched a nerve in my neck. My whole right arm is awful. Pain goes from behind my ear alllllll the way down to my wrist (with my shoulder and elbow being the worst two spots). My mom gave me one of her pills to help with the pain but it looks like I'm gonna be carted off to immediate care later tonight once they wear off. My left side hurts too but not as bad, however I hurt my wrist and half my hand was numb.

All I did was watch tv and get up from my chair :|...Literally just existing and I get hurt. FML.

EDIT:

Went to emergency care. Have a compressed nerve. Have to get a MRI on monday plus blood work for my other doctor just to make sure nothing else is wrong with me. Awesome. Frickin. Awesome.

 

I need to wake up in less than four hours to go to work, and I'm so awake it's a struggle to keep my eyes closed.

I mean seriously, it's like someone slipped me cocaine when I wasn't looking.

 

I woke up hearing my parents argue. There was no shouting, at least during the part I listened to. There's been som trouble for them for a while and I know what's it about. From my perspective it's a problem that can be managed as long as they (one especially) wants to work towards a change that has clearly been talked about. Although this time the word separation came up. The thought of that happening is terrifying to me. Not the best way to start the day I tell you.

 

Want hugs? Can I do anything? Meh, indeed not a good way of waking.