The "Bad Mood" Thread

My issues are ones that can't be solved or eased by talking, trust me I've been trying for years.

 

No, I get that. But if you feel you want to die, talking to someone who can be empathic to your situation, might be helpful.

 

Not trying to be callous, but I've heard it all before. It doesn't really do much for me.

 

I feel like crap today.

No idea why, but it's lingering for some time... I just can't get rid of feeling old. Like, mid-40's old. And I'm only 22. I should feel vigorous and full of will to live, but it's more like opposite. I'm constantly tired, both physically and mentally, with no idea how to remedy it.

 

Check your diet! That may have a lot to do with how you are feeling.

 

Ugh... The closest person on here is still on the far side of the next state. How come so many of you are so close to each other?

 

I feel the pain...nobody here is close to me at all.

 

I'm supposed to be going out with my parents today, but they're getting pissed at me because I'm feeling depressed and I "look miserable". Today's going to be fun...

 

It seems my graphics card is broken, and my PC runs on the internal one of the motherboard. That means I can't watch stuff on my TV from my PC, that my resolution is crap, and that I can't play Civilisation V (I play it with friends), and probably other games don't work as well. This sucks.

 

Fixed it. Manually installed drivers. I do hope it'll keep working for a bit longer. At least til I have some savings to fall back on again...

 

Ooooh, I love me a good game of Civ 5, though I've never played with other people before. Perhaps we could try to get a game together some time!

 

OH GOD YES PLEASE

We use http://multiplayerrobot.com/ which is an awesome tool for it. I don't have money at the moment to increase the amount of games I am allowed to have going at the same time, and both slots I can have are already filled.

 

Bought the new Of Monsters And Men album, only like 2 songs on it... This is why I don't buy albums...

 

Same here. I always give everything a good listen, and then download selectively. I rarely have never enjoyed an entire album.

 

Why does everyone like bands that put out such shitty albums

 

I don't like bands, I like songs/music!
There's some OMaM songs I like, and there's nothing wrong with liking them. It's just very unlikely I'd enjoy an entire album (from anyone.)

 

Bleh, there's plenty of great full albums that manage to be full of great songs that somehow manage to be much greater than the sum of their parts. Its a much less common way of making music, especially for recent music, but they do still exist!

 

You know, it really gets to me that in today's society, in most cases you have to sacrifice a hell of a lot of personal time in order to make a decent living, let alone be successful. I really struggle to understand how people can do it. We spend on average about 2 thirds of our lives working jobs we aren't often satisfied in and sleeping to recover for the next work day, as well as spending time doing routine things like food shopping, meal preparation, washing, cleaning, etc... and the money we get goes nowhere. I spent 5 weeks working a minimum wage job and I couldn't do it any longer because my mental health got so bad. The monotony, stupid work hours, disrespect from senior staff and piss poor income was literally driving me crazy.

What I really don't understand is how people seem to be so okay with such an obviously unfair system. I try to bring it up in conversations and get laughed down because I'm "still in my angsty teen phase", like pointing out an unreasonable and cripplingly laborious yet compulsory way of life is something reserved for those yet to be broken into the rigidity and futility of society's norm. I can't help that I get angry every time I remember that I am expected to labour my life away doing shit I dislike for people I will never even meet, competing for various roles that I have absolutely no interest in against people that are worse off than myself. "You get used to it" is not a fucking excuse or reassuring. I fucking despise that we're raised in a way that all we can do is say "well, what can you do?" and continue struggling to exchange our life time for stability. Not even happiness, just a chance to feel relieved for a while. Because everyone is so scared to try anything different, and the wealthy say "well I succeeded, there's no reason you can't" whilst ignoring all the privileges and natural boons that aided them.

Our economy is so fucked up by greedy people...I don't even need to list off the individual cases of messed up shit, you all have likely seen a lot of them already, but nothing changes. Not for the better, anyway. It took me a while to realise that things aren't the same as the last generation think they are, and how I was raised to believe such. I was told that you had to be trained to get a good job, so I stayed in education while others I knew stayed in work. They're still working minimum wage jobs or unemployed. I went to college, got certified as an electrician, but also got dropped by every company that wanted to hire me before I even started. I went to university and that turned out to be a load of outdated and inconsistent shit. I have senior lecturers in university telling me a load of shit about how to make my resume/CV look better to companies, how to network yourself, how to get high grades, etc... and the stupid boomer generation fucks don't understand that the real world doesn't work like that anymore. I could tell them from experience that most companies couldn't give a shit about a nice looking CV, how many connections you have, what grades you have or how proactive and forward you are; all they want to know is how much you can do for as little return as possible. I have qualifications out the ass, but that doesn't matter because I have no experience and my competitors are ex business owners and veteran professionals, as well as tons of students in the same boat. How the fuck do you even compete with that?

Life and society fucking sucks so much, but if you come out and say that, people better off than you look down on you and call you lazy and worthless and say you're whining about nothing. On the other hand, people in the same situations just tell you to keep your head down and just carry on working.

I've tried. And I just can't do that. The thought of the futility and bleakness of it alone makes me literally sick, and I really don't know how to deal with it.

 

I get how you feel reading that my reaction, "Finally someone gets me."
Then all the stupid motivational sayings. "You got to do what you got to do." I want to respond one time, "Right now I got to put a foot up your ass"

I don't know how I can help but I feel your pain

 

I agree AkaiKitsune. That was a main point of conversation I had last night (at the strip club. Weird place for it?) . We were all mid-late 20s or early 30s. All discussing and kind of lamenting the currently horrible job market, education system, and the ability for an honest worker to really support themselves. We all felt lucky enough to hold any job. Never mind being lucky enough to have one that could buy a house or support a family. We're hardly supporting ourselves.

A dream of mine is holding a stable career, owning a small paid-off house, and being able to actually put money away for retirement (which is much easier with a paid-off mortgage.) Some people (mostly older generations) give the impression that you simply work an honest job and you'll be A-okay. These days? Not really. I've done honest working for 8 years, and it keeps me afloat, but will never get me closer to those previously mentioned goals (particularly the latter 2.) I'd need 2 jobs, full-time, of my current wages. And if I was going to do that, when would I actually spend time living? Technically, 2 jobs could be covered by a couple I suppose. It almost seems like co-habitation is required unless you're incredibly well off already. Otherwise you won't have the money for anything but floating, like me.

I've sort of made peace with the fact that I will be working a job I may or may not find meaningful. I'm sort of lucky in that I find enjoyment in performing a job, learning it, and getting better, even if it's not exactly "meaningful," work. It just can't be something mind-numbingly repetitive. Something that requires no thought, or personal interaction. As long as I have time to go home and engage in something I enjoy, I don't mind what earns me a living (if I can stand it.)

Still hopeful for the future. My tactic is to just learn shit and try to be as hire-able and flexible as possible. But if I get a great and lucrative position, that just means another person did not. I wish stable living conditions and retirement could be guaranteed for everyone, but I feel like there's too many people and not enough jobs for that to be possible.