What Is On Your Mind?

Well my overnight went extremely well, the sound on this recording is probably the best and I have to greatly thank one of my assistants who has been doing audio engineering for quite a while and he helped me out so much.

 

Destiny.

 

I didn't start REALLY living, till I hit 50, now that I look back at my life.


Yeah, treat your body well, and you can enjoy a more comfortable older age. I'm not doing too bad, and I only started really paying attention to my health 4 years ago. Busting my ankle really set me back, but I'm certain that healthy living helped me heal much faster. I'm 95% recovered, though I'm sure I'll feel some pain the rest of my life. I do need to steer Mo's eating habits to a healthier menu, Since even I am experiencing a bit of weight gain now. Got to get back to a high fiber diet!

Just remember this you guys: "As you age, time tends to accelerate, and will pass you by if you don't try to keep up. You will fail, but trying will at least keep you in the loop" - me, myself and I, Eloe

 

Driving to Atlanta for Walker Stalker

 

Costume mask: Check
Masquerade mask: Check
House set for trick or treaters: Check

 

having seen the way my grandma and grandpa deteriorated from dementia and a stroke and everyone else in my grandma's care home, I don't want to ever be like that. I don't want to end up basically a 75 year old toddler that can't remember anyone's name and can only fixate on one idea for an entire day. dying doesn't scare me, being alive and not able to "live" scares me, all the potential and knowledge and experience of an entire life being slowly erased by the slow death of synapses scares me.

also, holy shit! they make rainbow twizzlers this halloween!

 

My friend is coming over tonight, and we're gunna suit up and crash a couple parties
So excited! I don't get many chances to suit up, and I hate fursuiting alone.

 

Fun Fact. I am now given no choice whatsoever but to use a VPN to even access half the internet. Did I mention this is in the United States? Thanks Capitalism.

 

So it turns out I don't care about Halloween? Not going to any parties, too old to trick or treat, so my night is gonna be just giving candy to greedy little shits all night.

Have I mentioned I hate children?

 

in our neighborhood, if you don't want kids to knock you just turn off your porchlight

 

Same here.

 

There are a lot of kids that live in my neighborhood, from children to teens, so I get a pretty good amount of traffic.

 

Me too and Christmas for that matter (no offence to anyone), it just feels so false and commercialized. Kids I don't like 'cause I'm just awkward unless they're able to talk and comprehend things reasonably...all that "baby talk" and pretending to be interested in what they talk about...not my thing.

I don't know why but for some reason time is just DRAGGING on...I wanna go home and toy damn it!

 

Spooky Halloween thought!

If I was an amputee, I'd beg the doctor to make the my prosthetic out of my actual bones. Like, imagine shaking hands with an ACTUAL living skeleton hand! It'd be badass as shit!

 

If I were the sole person in the house, that's what I'd do.

 

Ah well, thing is my health issues are genetic, things I can't change and have no control over. I do try to lessen the effect of a degenerative disease. Yeah, gets worse as you age, but I do the best I can. What I lack in strength, I try to make up for in ingenuity... figure out how to things differently, more effectively.
And to think positively, no matter how much my father want to bring me down. Constantly.

As for living. Yeah, I really didn't start until a few years ago. Curse my childhood for not having any kids on the street my age, curse over-protective parents that don't let me hang over at other peoples houses, curse getting a zone variation for high school across town, curse the two ex's that uprooted me.
I'm only living at half capacity. I have to live with somebody at the moment and they severely restrict me from things. I do get out to the club once a week. So I have had moments when I've "lived"... but it seems the further I isolate myself from others (but still having a social life), the better I do living and enjoying life.

 

Just had a little girl dressed as Minnie Mouse, who continually thanked me after I gave her candy and wished her a happy Halloween. She didn't leave my door stepped and kept thanking me. I gave you three pieces of candy kid, you're not getting anymore.

And if someone comes to my door and sings the Nightmare Night jingle, they will get more candy than anyone else.

 

Since I wasn't there I can't possibly have picked up any cues, but maybe that girl might not have been neurotypical?
I'v had a kid one year keep saying "OOh thats my favorite, I like Reese's a lot!" and try to hug me and I was kind of confused but his mom was like sorry sorry he has autism.

 

Nah, I just think she was trying to play cute. Doesn't work on me.

 

........... We've had two people show up. I didn't mean to kill halloween...