The "Bad Mood" Thread

@Misskin Its best to stay happy when others arent, because sometimes seeing a smile can help give them a boost.

 

That's what the Crisis Stabilization Unit that we took him to last night was, a psychiatric ward. They evaluated him and decided he wasn't severe enough to stay over night for whatever reason.

 

Ah, I partially misread your original post.
That's really strange... Where I stayed took me in even though I didn't even try anything, I had just been thinking about it. (Technically I was FORCED to be there, I didn't want to go).

 

Yeah, I know, just didn't seem right to me.

 

@Misskin Deriving your happiness will only make you one of the frequent posters here. I know that from a bit of experience - thinking of how people around the world have more severe problems, like the war or anything, just made me feel even more bad about myself. Amplified any bits of bad mood tenfold. Like, how I'm miserable whining about not being able to afford a new game or clothes, while in different parts of the world people can't even afford food or shelter.

 

Okay, back home so I can actually type an appropriate response to this without getting flustered by my phone's touch screen.

There's no reason you shouldn't feel happy and content, it's sweet that you care about people here enough to feel this way but at the same time these aren't your problems, these aren't things you should feel that bad about, instead, as Dame said, you should celebrate your happiness and give you ear and time to those that are having issues. I don't think anybody here would want you to feel bad because we feel bad, quite the opposite in fact, so please don't. <3

 

@All the Sweeties
Gaiz you're making me tear up over here

 

@Misskin Awww *huggles*

 

Mother asked about the business I wanted to create, even though I told her I'd need to win the lottery 'cause I wouldn't make it work here but in Japan or in the States.
In the moment she told me to get a credit, and I'm sorry but banks can go lick my anus when I'm taking a shit xDDDDD
Either way, why would you even care for that if I'm not even in the mood for getting out of the bed? Money, bitches.

 

last, last weekend I had my first ever stage show at a Ren Faire.
just me and my guitar and my own songs.
and I was well received. Which I couldn't believe. I hate everything I do and the fact that people liked my work was mind blowing.

last weekend was supposed to be my second show. I showed up all ready to go and was informed the morning of that I no longer had a show.

Apparently the Friday morning before, The person who runs the faire had received an email from one of the other performers on my stage that I called her group "cunts" on two separate occasions. Which I have no recollection of, and I remember when I call someone a cunt. And that a verse I had sang int he big, all bands, last gig of the day jam about back alleys and rusty coat hangers was neither funny, nor clever and too NC-17 for the NC-17 stage.
So achievement unlocked there I guess.
Mind you this is the same stage where friends of mine sing about bestiality, necrophilia and cannibalism.
I argued these points with the above information was simply told that "no one talks to her girls that way" by the owners "mercy and grace" i was not kicked out of faire and was allowed to be a roving performer instead.
I stayed in my encampment as my diplomatic way of saying "go fuck yourself, you cunt"
1. if someone has a problem with me, it would be nice if, for once in my life, they could come to me like i'm an actual human being and discuss the situation with me, instead of going to some higher power which suddenly results in me being fucked up the ass in the non pleasant way for something that I didn't even know that I did. despite all belief to the contrary I am actually a rational human being who would prefer to work things out with people if given the chance.
2. passing judgment solely based off of an email of unverified information that you got from your favorite performer.
politics, and a little girls club. And a shameful and inefficient way to run an organization of any kind. I expect this kind of behavior from Junior high schoolers. not adults.
3. the entire weekend I had third parties approaching me, telling me that people were sorry, and they didn't mean for me to loose my stage time and that things went to far and that They would apologize and reimburse me for tips lost since I couldn't perform on a stage. At the end of the weekend, no one involved talked to me. No one involved approached me to apologize or ask to hash things out. And sadly enough, it was what I expected. All I wanted was a god damn apology. at the very least someone to come up to me, in my entire free weekend, and say "hey, can we talk about what happened?" 5 minutes. no. nothing.

Sad part is it's not so bad because I'm used to it. this is one of many times I have been accused of something I never did with no substantial evidence and given the shaft because of it. This happens in work, love and hobby. And it happens every time I trust in someone or something and do my best to help it be the best.

At this point I am completely out of reasons or motivation to trust or be excited about anything ever again. I make plans and they are dashed by powers far out of my control. I'm done. I am so fucking done with people. every time I put some effort into something someone comes along kicks it in my face like a sandcastle. I have no more fucks to give. I can't tell who's actually my friend anymore and who's waiting for a clear shot between my shoulder blades. And people wonder why I'm an abrasive asshole half the time. Fuck it. humans aren't worth the time and energy it takes to bond with them.

 

This kind of shit happen everytime in the performance scene. If you love music make a channel on YT just for that and promote it, just you, yourself, your fans, and your beloved music.
-sigh- sorry man.

 

I dunno about YT, they like shafting people too, and are slightly less responsive than the guy running the ren faire.

 

What the hell. I went into walmart this morning, and out of 35 lanes, they had ONE open for the ENTIRE DAMN STORE. They even had the self checkout lanes closed.

 

for the past 3 days i've had a headache now its turned into a migraine. since i've had these things since i was 13 i can tolerate this one but spinny feeling is a little annoying.

here's hoping i don't lose my vision for a bit. my ice pack isn't finished getting cold yet

 

Infuriated right now. I don't even think I can go into detail about it all, because a lot of it is kinda humiliating. I just try every day to hide my real feelings and remain neutral to everything that's going on. My wife had lied about sending her laptop to the repair shop a few months ago. I knew she had lied. Because strangely enough she all of a sudden had money and used it to buy birthday gifts for her little brother, who has no consideration for anyone or anything but himself. He's 15. I had bought the laptop for her birthday, because she said she needed it for work (which has been non-existent) and also I wanted her to have her own so she would stop using mine. Her little brother has a laptop of his own, an old Lenovo piece of crap that he doesn't take care of. I've had to run virus scans on it and fix minor problems many times. Well he's done something to it and now it goes to the Lenovo Repair screen and just sits there, doing nothing. I told him over and over that closing the laptop was not how it was supposed to be shut down. I've many times gotten on his case for clicking on links and downloading crap that was screwing his laptop up. But now it is totally screwed and I don't know how to fix it.

Sitting and staring at it I got pissed off and told my wife I knew she had pawned her laptop and I expected her to get it back. I had told her pretty much the same thing a couple weeks ago and she said she would get it out. I was even going to pay for it but then I had to pay bills with my check and she said could pay a little at a time to get it out. But she hasn't done anything and I'm sure she's lost it by now. I'm so pissed off about this because she acts like it's no big deal and she doesn't care.

This is just one thing. There's so much more and it all piles up and pushes me to the breaking point.

 

Ewww, ocular migraines on top of regular migraines suckkkk. I battled with them for awhile.

Do you have any idea what causes them? You say you've been getting them since you were 13...could it be hormonal? Mine were, and they were tortuous.

 

I get migraines too, as it runs in my family. My mom always had the worst ones, and cutting out soda helped her. I've also heard that wearing rose-tinted glasses can help with certain types of chronic migraine, so I'd try that if it's very often.

 

Yup. Mine are hormonal. Some smells trigger me tho and if i take my medication like...a few hours late sometimes it can trigger them which is what i think this one is. It's calmed down now for the most part but it'll be back with avengeance later tonight x__x.

 

I never drink soda, I actually hate it. But I heard that chocolate can cause them a lot of the times too...but I'll be damned if I ever give that up D:

 

I've never heard of that.