The "Bad Mood" Thread

oh lord the migraine is back and it's making me want to puke. and im running a fever and feel even dizzier this is not good. im shaking too fml.

 

the more I hear about relationships from people here and from my friends who have women cheating on them right and left now it seems, makes me never want to have another relationship again.

 

I have desisted on relationships too. Join the 2D women/girls club. xD
Seriously.

 

I've never had a migraine that bad you might want to talk to a professional about that.

 

No, migraines are all like that.

 

Facebook was a buttfucker today and decided to suggest that I friend my ex fiance on his new profile. Freaking surreal to see pictures of someone you haven't seen for a year, who you used to know intimately as a friend and who simultaneously you now know as a total stranger. Jumped the gun and blocked him lol. Some good news, though: I've been told he will be leaving for S. Korea in like three days. He'll be on the actual other side of the planet for at least a semester, maybe a year. So ok with that.

 

Wow, that IS some buttfuckery right there.

 

I ended up waddling out to my mom's car telling her i wasn't feeling good and i'd never see her waddle so fast back into the car in her life. She had me get in the passenger seat while she drove to a fast food place to get me something filled with caffeine hoping it would help. My memory is a bit fuzzy. I remember her driving down the street and then i came fully back to reality when i had the drink in my hand. I must have passed out for a few minutes.

She believes that it was all a combination of the migraine, hardly eating or drinking today, and the sweltering heat in my house (along with my medication) that caused me to get even worse. She also said i was extremely pale, clammy, and shaking even worse till she got something in me. Felt fine for about an hour before i decided to lay down and try to rest. Didn't work. I woke up just a few minutes ago, shaking, soaked in sweat and my head pulsating with pain. My vision is foggy and I'm overheating again. The nightmare about pigmen from Machine for Pigs probs didn't help either.

I did take some pain medication hoping it would help (not Advil because I've tried that the past three days round the clock with no results, decided on taking something more heavy that knocks me off my ass (10 mg of Oxycodone)). Again, it didn't work. Mom says if i'm still this bad in the morning, she's taking me to the clinic at the neurological tower. They have emergency rooms where they administer and IV of medication to break severe migraines.

Hopefully my step dad will go to bed soon. He's adamant on not turning on anything to cool the house and relying on the windows and doors open. He also refuses to have the fan blow around the room and is having it exclusively blow on himself.

I think i'm gonna go pass out of reality for a while.

 

My support thread was deleted for being "similar" to the depression and anxiety thread.

Well fuck. I might as well just sit here the next 9 months until my boyfriend gets back from the fucking desert. Because I cant fucking get through this without some sort of support. I am already stressing about it because I'm afraid of regection and being hurt again. Nothing in my love life has been going right for me......

I have so many hopes for this relationship. And we both want this to work and I'm thinking he I'd really stressed and excited togo out there......jjust I want to be reassured constantly in the beginning and o worry that I'm going to fuvk it up. And I need people and things to distract me...

God strike me where iI stand if I can't fucking calm down.

 

Deep breaths Jazzi.
Worrying isn't going to help either of you. My ex was in the navy and was gone for 6 months when he did training. Try to find a way to channel your nervousness through some activity that has tangible results, its more fulfilling that way. Write to him every week about all the new things you're doing, it teally helps them do their best out there when they know their loved ones are doing well

 

The posts were moved to the other thread.
Here they all are: http://bad-dragon-chat.com/index.php?threads/depression-and-anxiety-support-thread.326/#post-9003

I'm not going to deprive you of being allowed to have support, Jazzi. If you're going through a tough time you're 100% allowed to talk about it. I simply merged similar threads to keep things tidy, exactly as they do on any forum.

 

Spoiler

Sometimes I don't even know why I'm still here.

 

Migraine broke for 8 hours and now it's back. I wanna nope nope nope away from everything.

 

What's wrong Ceo?

 

I hate when people negates the reality of videogames that have a 10 or are liked by everyone are shittier as the rest. Bias doesn't let you realize that a certain character is plain dumb, or that the plot is going meh or maybe that the game is just generic.
Seriously, bias is haouerghaujdskhfauht. I even hate the games I love, because I can see all their bad things. Why cannot everybody do the same and not going claiming this game is masterpiece, this is shit?
Every fucking game/book/movie/essay/usb cable/pc/coca-cola can/console/calculator/whatever... has its shitty side.
DRAGON PENIS.

 

I didn't even know as it was just completely gone.

@Misskin I do plan on writing him. I bought some stamps while shipping out a toy the other day. Im just anxious because theres a lot of stresswith work and school. Add worrying abput hi. And i just become a wreck on most days lmao..

 

Overall: Depression. BS. Depression. BS. It never ends.

In particular, currently: Friend and I had some long term plans to meet up around her birthday to hang out. But now she is telling me that some other friends will be in the area so I can't come up anymore. Blah, sounds stupid but there are other things going on with her. She's my best friend, but it seems like she just doesn't care about me anymore.

Makes me wish I just didn't give a shit about friends or anything. Was just telling someone else, I feel like a ghost that doesn't know it's dead and I keep wondering why no one seems to see me any more.

 

Stinks sorry to hear that. Why can't you hang out with her other friends with her?

 

*huggles the @Ceo Nadar*
That's such a horrible feeling. I wish I knew how to make it better.

 

I don't know. But that is the answer she gave me. Twice. I suppose she just doesn't want to hang out with me anymore.

@DameKathryn Thanks, Kate. Words fall flat, but I do appreciate that.