The "Bad Mood" Thread

Hey, that's something lots of people don't get a chance to do, seeing everyone one last time. I'm sure it made her very happy to know that she managed to hang on that long, and say her goodbyes.

 

She's like 95, I believe. Hadn't seen my brother in probably a couple of decades, until we went up before he moved to Texas, and one of my Aunts lives in Florida, but went up. Other than seeing dad and I, I think everyone else lives relatively nearby.

 

The monday is starting fucking great for me -.- first a valve upstairs somehow "jumped" out of pipe, whole kitchen, half the room flooded, then there's sparks (probably a short-circuit or insulation breakage) in cables... Just where my fucking rerarded father kept matches. One of the cables is almost completely fried, it's a miracle I noticed the sparks in time and nothing burned up.

 

Thanks you two, things are getting better! I appreciate it.

 

More a minor annoyance, but searches that shit themselves because they try to go WHILE you're typing really irritate me. Same with searches that automatically update when you click a check box, rather than letting you check all the boxes you want, and then hit a search button.

 

The last few days I've felt...soulless. It's odd...I'm not happy or mad just completely neutral.

Of course, this is most likely because I haven't heard from the girl. Somehow she was getting texts from my number that aren't mine and not sent from my phone. When she tried to text me back they didn't get to me and we found this out over OKC and both WTF'd. So I added her on FB.

Now I'm wondering if it's my end or hers and I'm worried big time she thinks I'm screwing with her head. I don't know anything about android or the possible mishaps. I tried one last time for a meet up on FB and no reply. I give up. I don't know what the fuck is going on but I'm really choked; I was looking forward to a good friendship and a mentor of sorts, she's really inspiring. I need to talk to more people, I hide away way too much and there's nobody in my life I can talk to in person about this stuff.

Damn it. It seems that every time something really nice comes my way, it's taken from me just as fast.

 

Fuck the last thing I posted here, this is worse.

A really good friend of mine, one of my oldest friends, just got arrested and confessed. To rape. Of a minor. Over TWO FUCKING YEARS. Starting when she was THIRTEEN. And he got fucking married to one of my other friends less than a year ago! I don't even know how to process this. I've just been shaking uncontrollably. This fucking piece of shit has been lying to us all.

 

That's unbelievable o_o your friend must be in literal hell right now

 

They'd been together for at least five years, married since last summer. She's a wreck.
He always seemed so decent and he's a goddamn pedophile.

 

Stay strong for her, she's going to need people to turn to and count on through this.

 

Yikes! I imagine that'd be crushing... Having someone you think you know well, never mind married, turn out to do something horrible as that. Can't really say much other than be there for them... Damn...

 

I have to leave town again Sunday, but I'll do my best for her. I can't even imagine what she's going through.

Update: it was his wife's niece. I'd really like to barf right now.

 

Although no where near as bad as that but a lorry decided to try and park on my boot lid (trunk for you over the pond). It's only 2 months old aswell. Boooooo

 

Eloe is sad.......Mo has gone to Orlando to teach Color Guard, and won't be back til next Sunday.
This will be the longest we have been apart since we met. And it's only been a day and a half.......


At least I still have my toys

 

Be strong Elo sweetums

 

I will, and it's not really all that bad. I'm actually looking forward to getting some stuff done around the house with out him getting underfoot. There are so many things I like to do that he has no interest in, or take up too much room on a day to day basis.

 

Mo is in Orlando? Now I'm kind of sad we haven't gotten to know him, or I might have wanted to meet him.

 

Wish I had my friend, FWB, whatever with me. Miss her. Could have used her company recently.

 

I wake up today morning with huge self-doubt. Nothing's wrong at the moment, yet I still feel shitty somehow. And I keep wondering, even if I don't want to, will anything move forward in my life. And of course stupid brain thinks along the lines of "NOTHING IS GONNA IMPROVE EVER YOU'RE STUCK IN YOUR SHITTY JOB IN SHITTY HOUSE WITH SHITTY FAMILY AND UTTERLY ALONE".
Sigh. I just had to let this out. Sorry if I sometimes seem like attention whore or something.