What Is On Your Mind?

I'm feeling kind of torn. There is a gorgeous sleipnir for sale in my country in the second hand sales thread. I can not afford a new toy however I could try and sell one of my current toys to get the funds. But I am rather fond of my two I own. I tried sleipnir while at my boyfriends and ho.ly. shit. It felt AMAZING. But this one is an 8. Could possibly be too firm? If I sold one of my guys it would be my pretzal as I am never ever in a million years selling my crackers (Split fade with a highlight. Never seen anything like it colourwise before). But pretzal can feel pretty amazing sometimes too. If it was a 5 there would be no hesitation.

 

Whee ! I just shaved my head by myself with a razor for the first time tonight. Pretty damn pleased. Its no where near as nice as when others do it for me though but for a first time I'm pretty happy

 

I'm at a job where I am surrounded by children of the cold war. I have one guy that believes the EPA is funded by Russia to shutdown powerplants. Not joking that is his literal opinion. All of them have 'red scare', have nationalism to the point of Xenophobia, and suffer from Christian Conservative homophobia.
So I am keeping my opinions to myself. They see me as the 'liberal youth destroying this great nation'. While I see them as 'relics of a bygone era that should have it's return prevented at all cost'
We both find each other ignorant. While I see myself as a progressive, they see themselves as traditionalist.

Sorry had to vent

 

Say hello to my lovely chimera boy~
His name is Devon.

 

It's adorable

 

Its going to be a tense 2 weeks, dear god I need a drink though. And I dont say that often.

 

WOW it's been awhile since I even popped in here. ; x ; HOPE Y'ALL ARE WELL.

 

Whalecum back!

 

Nice to see you back

 

Thank's y'all!

 

Ugh, this amount of downtime is not good for me.
Im not working, Im not studying, Im hardly volunteering at the moment. I have things I need to do but theyre not pleasant.
My mind has began to wander and I'm starting to feel very insecure and unsure of a lot of things. Atleast when I'm busy I'm distracted. I'm a deep thinker but I do not like to think too deeply.

 

So I got some art commission. For a new toy. He is going to be so cute.

 

Oooh, can't wait to see! Who is doing your commission?

 

I can't wait to see the final version
Http://www.furaffinity.net/user/iwbitu/

 

Oh wow! I love the artwork, I may have to get one done by them too :3

 

Oh man, they do great work! I wish I had a set fursona or something like.. I have just a few floating around, but not one that really resonates with me fully so I just wouldn't know what to commission. I wish I did though.

What is on my mind though is, I'm feeling hecka under the weather, I have at least 2 toys coming in today and 2 came yesterday, but I was too lazy to boil them and same still cuz I don't feel well so that kinda sucks not having anything new to play with rn but it being RIGHT THERE. Especially with my first XL toy that I impulse bought, but that sure as heck isn't going to stop me from trying to use it lmfao the point on the end might though which is literally the only reason I'm semi-regretting it right now cuz I feel like it wont work out, but I'm up for the challenge! Hopefully it'll surprise me!

My body feels so bad to move it tho x-x thankfully my husband is sending out a toy for me today so I didn't have to go to the post office. I wish he was home from work already :C

I spent most of my afternoon yesterday modding our switches though and they look pretty bomb, wish I had better lighting, but for like the 1000th time my ass isn't getting out of bed right now lmfao but my thumb and pointer finger kinda really hurts from doing all those screws and having to hold it in such a way. I haven't had pain like this in years when I had overdone it with some videogames for days in a row.

We have no food at the house cuz I haven't gone grocery shopping.. bluh.. I wish I had some soup. At least its friday and I'll have my husband all to myself this weekend <3

edit: I mentioned pictures but forgot to add them

 

Credit card debit from overspending months past....I haven't been able to pay it off yet. I'm a bit scared that my job may be in jeopardy. So, I don't sleep well. I'm also losing my love for the vast majority of the toys I own and are now up for sale. I feel like I should just keep it to four toys. So, we'll see how the new ones are when they come in. =/ Overall, my mind is all over the place and I'm hating it. I just want to be at peace and happy. -sighs-

 

We feel your pain.
Think of this way, if you keep it to 4 toys less likely they will be neglected.

 

True. Hopefully, I'll be able to pay off this debt soon and be happy again. At least I won't be getting rid of all of them. Just the ones that I don't toy with much anymore.

 

Go see Solo, it was fun and reminded me a lot of the star wars novels I read as a kid, short fun stories written by people who loved the characters enough to give them adventures and build them up.