The "Bad Mood" Thread

@Dark Butterfly
Only people who don't understand depression think its a "cute quirky trait", something I never understood.
My opinion of depression is that you can't wait for it to go away before picking your life back up, in fact, sometimes the cure can be just to create novelty in your life. Though everyone who suffers from depression should always check to see if its hormonal first because no amount of positive thinking can fix a physical ailment.

In your specific case butterfly, its so sad that your friend's depression has found its way to you, but you have to fight it hard. I'm not talking about just relying on prescription or forcing positivity, I'm talking about pursing its destruction with ferocity, because if you succumb to it, theres a chance that a friend of yours will carry it from you. It won't end. I wish you all the luck I have.

 

okay
I never thought I'd have to say this, but here it is.

1) When I post pics on the Naughty forum its on my own whim, don't ever assume that its going to be a regular thing and complain if the time between postings are too short for you.
2) Asking me directly to provide you with fap material is straight up rude and disrespectful no matter how friendly/cutely you try to phrase it
3) Its MEGA RUDE to even HINT that I'm obligated to give you pics just because you voluntarily send me yours (despite the fact I don't even ASK for them).

That is all, go home

 

So first of all, I'm posting this here because I need all the thing to get out of my head and have no friends close enough to speak with and I'm to proud (or maybe arrogant ?) to act "weakly" in front of my family. Please do not pay attention but thanks for those who might read this to the end.

To begin with, lets say I'm someone successful, at least before coming out of school. I've a diploma of IT technician and had good marks to my final exams. Yet here is the problem, intellectually I know what I'm capable of but as soon as I'm confronted to a request or a project from my coworkers/hierarchy my emotions just go panic mode. And the result was a fucking burnout even if I was working as a simple trainee two month ago.

Since then everything is going wrong, I can't find the strength to go back to work, I barely speaks to my family in fear of being told "You seems to go better so when are you going back to work?" (it happened several times) and I'm not even able to spend good time with friends cause I'm faking the good mood. Let say that sleeping is not perfect too. At the moment I'm writing this, the time is 04:26 AM and like every night I stand awake until being forced to bed by weariness and I'll sleep during the day.

Now, why am I putting this here? Maybe it's to catch some attention or maybe I'm craving to speak but I feel only comfortable hidden behind my screen and pseudonym I don't know. Hell, I don't even know what to do to kill the issue. I've reach a point where I doubt everything about myself and my choice of career and when people around me want to give me a hand the only thing that fucking old stubborn goat I am do is yelling at them to leave me alone and go away.

I still made a step, I'm followed by a specialist even if I don't see the benefits, I fucking know what's wrong with me:

• Lack of confidence
• Fear of judgement (I took alcohol to help me actually validate the post instead of erasing it)
• Lack of purpose in life
• Paranoia (a small one but enough to always ask myself the reason for them to want to help me and are these guys laughing at me?)
• Lack of interest for the major accomplishments of our society as to know :
  • Money
  • Fame
  • Advancement

Yeah, that's enough for one night of introspection I think. I need solutions and all this specialist is making me do is speaking about my past again and again and again (stop stealing my money damn it). Although, all those sites on personal improvement have thousand of solutions and advises but none says how I'm supposed to apply them if my brain is always going blank and I find myself trembling in my bed when I try to make a step further. Maybe I don't really want to change and if so what have I done to wreck myself like that ?...

 

It's exactly this kind of behavior that made me stop posting naughty pics here altogether.

 

@Vael
You know something, by the laws of nature you're a f*king rockstar, because you're winning the only game that truly matters, survival.
Everything else is stuff we "need" to live in a functional society and we can't change that (at least not in our lifetime), but heres the part where I stop being useless and say something helpful lol.

I think you're holding yourself to too high of a standard. Its perfectly okay to fail, hell half of the world's best innovations were results of failure. Its a real outcome of any decision you take and you have to learn to accept that, because even not trying or not doing can result in failing in some way. Doing something you're afraid to do is the very definition of bravery.

IMO finding purpose in life is something that starts in you, not somewhere out in the world. We all have jobs, but our true passions lie in other things (unless you're one of those lucky SOBs who made their passion into a job). Take it slow, go do some frivolous stuff, so many people have the problem of trying to live too fast, but in your case I'd saw slow down.

 

Its just, this came from a person I thought was my friend and it made me second guess some stuff between us.

 

Eww. Ewwww. This is me doing the shake-the-yuck-away thing with my hands at the fact that this is happening to folks on here.

When it comes to freely-offered pics and such? Especially private ones? The audience should be grateful for anything and assume nothing. Bah. I'm super sorry to hear it's even a thing that needs to be said.

 

Aww man Misskin, I'm really sorry to hear that you're having to deal with that, ESPECIALLY here.

 

Even with game charaters it happens, happened to me a long while ago. I used to post naughty screenshots of my mithra or galka using .dat mods to make them naked or do dirty things, play with others and they respected I did NOT want any irl stuff. Yet I would get tells/whispers and private messages asking to submit my RL nudes to them because "You always make your mithra do slutty things! its only fair!" U WOT m8? and cause of people like that I don't really do it anymore (plus lack of people who are not brainless endgame botter eletist drones AND lack of .dat mods for Galka and the male races as a whole) I lost the spark for it...I did it cause there was littraly no straight loving for the Galka (if there was any love it was bara, not that its a bad thing mind you)

Hell I refuse to even bother with endgame as a whole, nothing but pigs there, one guy when as far as to whip it out on cam and DEMAND I flash, I reported him to the leader but I was told the usual bullshit "lol you asked for it! just block him and stfu" though now a days endgame in 11 is just elitist bot e penis waving contests so meh.

Sure I don't care if they fapped to the screenshots, it means I did my job, pleasing other Galka lovers (or those who just wanna see a big dick get tended to by something smaller like a Mithra) but just cause I made those dose NOT mean I'm about to freely post naked pictures of my real self, only my boyfriend can see that.

Thats the one thing I do not miss about "old school" FFXI, it can stay dead and buried for all I care.

 

You go girl. Stop that shit right in its tracks. I'm thrilled to see anything and everything people post over in my home thread, and I will absolutely not stand for anyone getting pushy about what people contribute. Entitlement is NOT okay. Unsolicited offers are NOT okay. Begging is NOT okay. In fact, I think I'm going to post in the thread about it, because I don't want anyone getting any stupid ideas about how to treat my friends and fellow contributors.

 

@gerbilfluff @MurphyAlter @Dark Butterfly @Exeter
Thanks you guys

 

*Hugs Misskin* now this is one of the reasons I don't post pics especially if it will result in pm's asking for more etc. Even though I haven't posted pics yet I still get pm's saying "Hey you seem like a nice girl, What toys do you have?" To "Fancy giving me some pics of you using them?" Or "Wanna have fun with those toys on Skype?"
I know there are genuine people out there that like the pics users post but to the ones that are randy beasts that want free porn I say "No!"
*Hides behind Misskin* Ok I have had my say.

 

@Exeter has posted a very clear warning about stuff like that in the Pics and Vids thread. Report those who are doing it and they will be dealt with.

 

Thanks for the advice Sugarcube.

 

You are a treasure to this community darling, you protect the goods at all costs. I'd rather never see a single nudie from you than even imagine somebody giving you the creeps. ><

 

OMG this is such a sweet comment Sugar. *Nuzzles*

 

You've been here since day 3. I'd hate to think that anyone as active, friendly, and well-known as you would have anything but comfort and happiness here.

**nuzzles back**

 

I didn't see that one coming
For the rest, I'd like to be able to accept failure. I'll speak about that with the Doctor, thank you for the input.

 

Thanks Admin!
It's not so much on this forum...more so on the official BD forums.
But my feelings go out to Misskin. People are NOT entitled to any pics, and it just irks me when they think they are.