What Is On Your Mind?

Good luck! / Bonne chance!

 

I ended up changing my summoner name for League. Because Dividia is a synonym for Discord. And I like Discord...

 

Just learned that BD is not able to sell cumlube in Spain no more just because reasons.
I'm hating on this country even more. You don't want lube to be imported but you don't have any good lubes in the market. My future is lubing with car oil or something.
I was going to buy my xmas presents ;A;

 

Please to anyone on the forum don't start smoking its and addiction you can't stop that easily and the damage cannot be reversed.
Plus it's not a nice sight for your love ones to see when the cancer slowly eats the one they love.

 

Figured it out. I'll send the lube to a friend in Germany and he'll bring it home in his checked luggage because that way you can. Ridiculous customs are ridiculous XDDDD

 

I went over to a good friend of mine's house last night because we've been out of touch for so long...he made sushi and miso soup, and we got to talking...

I had a serious mind fuck moment. I have always had this...absurd and seemingly ludicrous ideas and feelings, and here was this guy who I haven't talked to in literally years, putting all of these senseless thoughts into perfect meaning and clarity...and I'm not talking lighthearted stuff either...I'm talking the meaning of life shit...things that have the potential to change the whole fabrication of the world if realized by more people.

it was just...an amazing experience, backed up by all kinds of books he had laying around. And it was also strangely comforting...I can honestly say that thinking in the way he taught me to, it completely 100% eliminates all of the existential anxiety I've been harboring for so long. Just...wow.

 

Why have I been so clumsy lately? I hope whatever it is doesn't follow me along the rest of the year.

 

I've had that before, but it was self triggered when I was doing something outdoors in good ol nature.
I felt like a bonafide guru after that x3

 

Ugh so like this guy I met New Years. Hang out with him last night. Cuddles n shit. Next thing I know, SEX.
Great sex but like I kinda feel bad in a way because this was the year i was leaving all the causal sex behind >.> Plus he's a marine going back to California too, so like. WHAT the hell body and brain? Keep it in you're pants...

 

I smell like burning metal and woodstain. shower time. lol

 

I should not be waiting 3 days till the game to finish making my campaign bosses. >__< I can never focus on one thing at a time. I need to get this done and I want to go make another burlap scarecrow mask.

 

went and paid college fees, just under $500 for class fees and the same for books, if I didn't have the scholarship I do I would've been dropping around $6000 today. fuck that shit.

 

Still don't understand why my mum is so against me learning Japanese or saying it's pointless?

She actually came into my room and was asking what were the symbols I was writing and what do they mean. She even said how neat I write in another language.

So thought omg she is actually excepting I am being serious about learning this language.

Then the comments came of "Oh pity you can't write as neat in English" and "You'll never get anywhere learning Japanese so why don't you concerntrate on programming. You could get somewhere learning that and I am sure you'll be good at that instead of wasting time on a language you'll never use or need".

*SIGH*

 

Heh... heaven forbid you become a well-rounded student at the very least, eh? Sounds like your mother has at least a bit of a toxic personality (couches insults with praise, among other things). I can sympathise, greatly. If it helps, just remember not to take it personally. Whatever negativity or anxiety she feels towards your choosing what you want to do with your life is her problem, not yours. Sounds like you could be waiting a long time (i.e. forever) for approval from your mother. Keep doing what makes you happy and enriches your life, and look only for validation of your efforts and choices from within (and from friends).

 

Today was a good day :3 some plans have been made, and they are good plans ;3 I just don't know if I can share them yet x3 I'll wait till they've been made 100%

 

Such a tease.

 

well I have plans too you know! big plans!

 

big in the butt plans xD

 

No, sadly no plans there.

 

Butt it's the perfect place to hide plans...